I think it is safe to say the part of my New Year's resolution for 2016 about blogging hasn't gone well! It is nearly August already and I am looking back going, 'where on earth did the last 7 months go?'
I'd love to say it was because I have been incredibly busy but we all know where this is going... nothingness!
I am starting to sound like a broken record aren't I?... I am even bored of hearing myself moan! :D
SO... lets brush over what I haven't done because I can feel a change coming! I may have hit a low point in my life but these things happen and getting through it makes you a stronger person.
I admit, there were times where I couldn't see a way out of the negativity and reoccurring thoughts in my head, even though colleagues and friends were telling me how to change my life for the better....
Don't get me wrong, I wanted to change, I didn't want to waste my life! I already feel like the first 30 years of my life have flown by! but that voice of doubt, that lack of confidence in myself kept bringing me back into the gloom... until... one sunny Sunday afternoon my mum goes to me,
'so how are you going to sort your life out?'
ha! talk about straight to the point! :D
I won't go into the conversation but I think having someone so close to me, someone who's opinion I hold highly, tell me that I need to change, before it's too late, made me realise how serious this was. I'd been brushing it under the carpet in a way, just getting on with life, having an 'I'll do it tomorrow' attitude almost and it wasn't solving anything, I was just torturing myself with my own misery.
Well after our little chat, that's when the little switch inside me went on and I can say that I actually feel different! A weight has definitely lifted and I'm trying to look at things more positively! This is my life and I have control of it, no one else! So it is down to me to change it! Plus I hate the idea of my mum worrying about me, I'd do anything for my mum so I think that's what has helped in changing my attitude to how I see things. :)
From now on I am going to say 'YES' more, I am going to take chances and I am going to be more positive. I've said it before and I will probably say it a hundred times over but life really is too short!!!!
So on a positive note I am starting to look after my body (after gaining a fair bit of weight over the past 2yrs) by eating healthier and starting to exercise more.
I am also on the look out for a new career pathway! My dream job is still to be a textiles designer but I have a lot of work ahead of me to get things rolling in that department. My creativity has been on the back burner for a long time now... but I am planning to get things moving soon!
And finally, I am just going to get out and do more! :D
A highlight of this year so far was a ceramics taster day at The Ceramic Studio in Kent that was gifted to me for my birthday. I had an amazing time and was surprised at how difficult but fun/rewarding it was!
|first ever attempt at throwing!|
|third attempt |
(second attempt ended up in the waste pile!)
Then I made a couple of hand built items...
Don't forget to check out my Instagram as I often post my creative adventures on there :)
Time to say farewell for now, until next time!!